Why I Love Thee

I've been writing every night, the only time I can be quiet by myself. The only time i can really write and be who I am in front of my computer. I would like to do something a little different tonight. It's only 14 days away and after all I'm feeling especially mushy mushy tonight. You will never see me write anything like this in my blog and you might never see it again after today and here it goes.

I know sometimes when in a relationship we forget the magical moments we experienced when we were first discovering each other. You know, those moments when our heart races or our breath quickens. We actually feel the power of love just by looking at someone. Soon, the reality of life takes over, it begins to crowd out those romantic feelings and soon you have something comfortable, something special but something that it's very easy to take for granted.

And I take my Fiancé for granted. What I took granted for is a lot of her love for me and I receive every bits of it and treat her the person in my life that she is. I forget to tell her how much better every single day is, just because she is in it with me. I pulled away from my past and she has given me the reason to start over, stood by me, never pushing me, never making me felt un-noticed.

Instead, she loved me as she always has loved me unconditionally and trustworthy. I never had to lose any of my belly for her to love me or to consider me attractive. She saw all that I'm uncovering now including my hairy ass, from that very first moment I saw her. When the world treated me like I was invisible, she was the only one who can see me. She held my hand and was never ever ashamed to present me to the world as the one she loves.

And she's the one that I love every day, in every way. I love being able to tell her anything without fear of being judged or reprimanded. I love how she makes me laugh and taught me how to make life fun. I love her for telling me it was okay to share all my thoughts with her and not to keep it inside me like I always do.

She gave me her heart, she gave me an extended finger for me to place a ring and who accepted me and my family. I know when I'm with her, love doesn't leave, no matter how bad things can get. I love you Carmen from this moment on, and forever. Thank you for being my biggest fan of my blog and for a thousand other reason why I love you.

Yes, I don't feel that mushy anymore therefore i can stop by now I feel a little kinky. Now here's a post about how I touch myself everynight and it goes like this, imagine pumping a shotgun.

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