What is Left of Me Part 2

All this marriage thing is already taking a toll on me. I can't stand all this issues of what to do and what not to do and for a fact I'm paying for every single thing for this marriage. You can imagine as a person who comes out with all this money can't even say a damn thing about it. Yet, I'm instruct to do what is told even in my own house. All i know is that whatever that is on the guy side is up to us to decide and not to be decided by the ladies side. I'm spending thousands and thousands and I can't even voice a word on my side without being mad at. This pisses me off!! When I start to suggest something that is on my side of the family, I get bombarded by faces from hell. Nobody cares about what I want to say, so what is left of me now is just a shell. I really hope people will understand my predicament because I've been keeping quiet all this while, I just follow what people ask me to do and I've compromised. I belief I've lost my self in all this and I'm suffering from pre-marriage syndrome.