Counting Down to the Inevitable!

It’s hard to believe, but it’s already the end of the first week of April 06 and here comes second week. Not only that, today just happens to be one week before my birthday.

Normally in the past I wouldn't look forward to my birthday because it means holding a party and having loads of pisst and drink myself silly I wanted to avoid that. BUT this year for the first time i'm looking forward to it. Not just to drink my self silly but to meet up with people I seldom get a chance to see and of cause my drinking buddies which you can "trust" "whole heartedly".

Every year I tell myself it's gonna be the last time I'm celebrating coz I dun wanna publicize my age anymore, and hopefully people would forget how old I am! I guess last year was the last time I celebrated in a big way. I did the usual stuff this year, will try to book a table at Loft. It was nice celebrating with close friends, well, familiar people that I'm comfortable with. I realize the importance of such friends. I guess that in itself is a present to me. Maybe as you get older, you realize that birthday parties are not about having a wild time, but spending it with the people that really matters to you as you do to them. That's what I would call a meaningful birthday.

Well, for the first time im actually publicizing my birthday and it's actually on April 18th but i'm certainly not against celebrating a few days early and on the day proper and a few days later. haha encore. Anyway this weekend sounds promising. Let's say... 14th or 15th?

Again I'm really looking forward to it cause right now I feel like fresh crap and depress. In addition to being tired now I'm maybe sick. So I feel and smell like shit at this moment. Infact, I don't want to get up every morning for work. Fuck, I feel horrible. There. I said it and I'm really really looking forward to my BeeDay. Cheers!