Belief

What I have been doing all my life is standing for what I believe in, regardless of the odds against me. Nowadays I am able to keep a smile on my face all the time for the sake of supporting my gf and I mentally. We have been having plenty of determination lately. Doing more than is expected to make life a little more bearable for the future. Facing every difficulty with a confidence that time will bring us better tomorrows.

Almost A Burst Pipe

Last night i was travelling to Pekan Semenyih to have dinner with my gf. There was a slight urge to go to the toilet before I made the journey but i decided not to go to the toilet due to time constraint, anyway it's only 30mins drive from Puchong. So, I wasn't really thinking about going that time as my mind was thinking about other stuff. As i got to Semenyih coming towards an exit there was this mysterious jam. A jam that I had never encountered. From then on, my pundi kenching is filling up fast and is growing like a baby melon fruit. Trust me you don't want to be in the situation I was in. No place to stop, no "emergency" lane, no road side-side show. I can't do much but to pray hard that my pipe won't come busting out with really fresh warm chinese tea. I swear tears was coming out from my eyes. I was in pain, sweat and anger, so i picked up my mobile to call her, maybe some kind of conversation with her will soothe my urge to explode! Well it wasn't working cause somehow with all the pressure downbelow I wasn't thinking right, I felt she was whistling in the background, not good, not good. I told her to wait for me at the door so she could just let me in. I got there in the nick of time, rush to the toilet and let go the broken pipe, water gushing out like my kampung waterfall. What a good 5 minutes that was!!

10 Best Thing to Say If Caught Sleeping on Your Desk

• 10. "They told me at the Blood Bank this might happen."
• 9. "This is just a 15 minute power nap they raved about in the time management course you sent me to."
• 8. "Whew! Guess I left the top off the Whiteout. You probably got here just in time."
• 7. "I wasn't sleeping! I was meditating on the mission statement and envisioning a new business strategy."
• 6. "I was testing my keyboard for drool resistance."
• 5. "I was doing a highly specific Yoga exercise to relieve work-related stress. Are you discriminatory toward people who practice Yoga?"
• 4. "Darn! Why did you interrupt me? I had almost figured out how to handle that big accounting problem."
• 3. "Did you ever notice sound coming out of these keyboards when you put your ear down real close?"
• 2. "Who put decaf in the wrong pot?!?"And the NUMBER ONE best thing to say if you get caught sleeping at your desk !
• 1. Raise your head slowly and say, "...in Jesus name, Amen"

My Precious.....

I got the wedding rings yesterday. I hope this would be the final ring I will ever buy. Well, the rule is neither one of us will wear the ring until we register at the registras marriage office and exchange vows, only then we can swap the rings. Anyway I kept her ring and she kept mine, so that we can't wear them on our wedding finger due to the difference in sizes. Here's a sneak peak of our "my precious......."

p/s: helpme

Learning Hakka

Yea, for the past few nights I have been practising Hakka with the help of my 'hao liang' gf and her sister. Not bad huh? I need to learn quick as I need to understand and to communicate with her family so that I can be one with them. I want to be able to say something intelligible to them in Hakka with bit of politeness. I have learned a few but I really don't know what it really meant. To prove that I have mastered the dialect, here are some that I can remember. I hope I don't dissapoint her.... ahem...

• How Lin Ngong
• Taa Fooi Kee
• Koo Koo
• Pet Pet
• Choon Nga Lin
• Lin tiew
• Sik tze
• Chi Pet
• Ngya ma
• Boon kiu diao
• Boon bangali diao

I remember it all by heart and I hope they are proud of me.

I Came This Far and It's Worth It!

How did I get here? I do not undermine my worth by comparing myself with others. It is because I'm different and that each of us is special. I do not set my goals by what other people deem important. I knew for myself what is best and I do not take for granted the things closest to my heart. I cling to it as if would my own life, for without it, life is meaningless.

I do not let my life slip through my fingers by living in the past nor for the future. By living my life one day at a time, I live all the days of my life. I do not give up when I still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment a person stop trying. It is a fragile thread that binds us to each other. I am not afraid to encounter risks and I know it is by taking chances, that I learn how to be brave and accept challenges.

I do not shut love out of my life by saying it is an impossible task. The quickest way to receive love is to give love. I do not dismiss my dreams. To be without dreams is to be without hope. To be without hope is to be without purpose. I do not run through life so fast that I forget not only where I have been, but also where i'm going. Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way. My TRUE journey will begin.....

My 300th Crap Post!

You are reading the 300th post. Oh my God, do you know what this means? Pulitzer? Bloggie Award? I guess not for a 300 times i wrote Crap for this blog, and not to say, a Book, or something similarly useful or money making. 19 months have gone by since I started it, but it certainly had the desired effect, getting me to get into the habit of writing everyday. And I can promise one thing, I will continuously blog about my life, marriage and parenthood. So here's to "The Last Thing You Will Read, Is This Crap!"

So dear readers, as i am thinking only of you, let us look back at some of the (oh so many) highlights of the last three hundred times you pretended to be doing "Emails", "Proposal" and "Research" in the office but you were actually reading this crap! So here, please comment and let me know what crappy post you like best.

To commemorate my 300th post.... this would be my huge sacrifice for you readers to post one of my old skool photo with a "half-cut coconut shell hair do". A women I knew very well quoted that once for me.

What is a Good Day in October?

I've been thinking for the past few days of a good day to register? Can anybody help me out? You know... a day we can remember by! The ring is already on her finger but it won't mean anything unless we put blood on paper. :P Need Help!, I mean need help on a good day to register.

On the other hand, houses are not selling!?? I wonder why? There are many houses in Kota Kamunting that has been completed but none is being sold. The developer added that the economy is not good. I wonder how we justify that the economy is not doing well, i guess the spending power of consumers are not strong. Anyway, we were eyeing on this Semi-D house there, very nice place to stay. Guarded town house. Only 10k to do the booking!

Jokes after Jokes

Life after death
BOSS said to an employee:
"Do you believe in life after Death?"
EMPLOYEE: "Certainly not! There's no proof of it", he replied.
BOSS:"Well, there is now. After you left early yesterday to go to your uncle's funeral, he came here looking for you."



Birthday Present
A wife was very unhappy with her car and complained a lot to her husband:"Buy me a surprise for my birthday" she said. "Something that accelerates from 0 to 100 within 4 seconds""... and I would prefer a blue one please!"Happy and excited she was counting down the days for her birthday.And finally she got the beautiful present her husband thoughtfully bought.


Click here to see the present

"Good Things Will Come To People Who Waits"

Hmm, I've heard this saying over and over again. Is there a guarantee or can THEY guarantee that THE good things will EVER come? I know it'll drive many people crazy if they have to keep thinking about it. I might be wrong on this one, but i might just have to keep the faith and i do believe that there's always sunshine after the rain.

I've gotten to a point, just have to have this faith nothing is for sure and no one can guarantee anything to anybody the only thing that life can guarantee is "nothing is for sure" it's unpredictable!!

I belief we have to be optimistic and see brighter side of every situation. We can always be thankful and be content.

Some people are too cynical to believe that good things come to those who wait. They would rather take action and try to make them happen, this way they bomoh to bring the sunshine after the rain.

Stress Reliever

Lately I've been very down with family issues, china business headches, company headches and future plannings stress. Haven't been going out to party for a month. Sometimes when I'm down, the first person i turn to is my gf. She really understands my problems and make an effort to listen, advise me. Sometimes i felt that i have a meeting of minds between her and I. You know, when you have a very special feeling with her and both feel it at the very same time and it is a very important and unique feeling that I have never experienced before ever with anyone else...

I really felt valued and respected around her. I feel like I can talk to her about everything or anything at any given moment without any holding back on anything. She only want the very best for me and only wants me to be happy no matter what. This give me a lot of self confidence, self esteem, and self worth. I know i can turn to her when i have problems, she is my stress reliever.

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This few days I've had friends complaining about their partners, about this, about that. It is as though they are not ready for any commitments or relationships. Then why have one?? If you cannot accept them as part of your life then don't even start one!! Geez!! Relationship is not a ride in the park, it's about commitment and responsibilities not just LOVE! Not just one leg kicking and one hand clapping. If your partner wants to go happy happy joy joy and doen't seem to care about you, or don't get things done, then what can you do? Just blame yourself for putting yourself in this position. Nobody can help you but yourself, as a true friend i'm on neutral grounds, i can't side anyone.

A little personal note, people do change thru time, it's a matter of when? He can do all that he wants now but one day he's going to think deep, he'll know who's true and have been committed to him all these while. Break up is not the solution unless you are very sure of your future. Good Luck.

Do we have to work?

I'm so fucking tired!!! I have wayyyy too many things going on inside my head and my brain juice is empty to do anything. I need answers!

Why on earth do we need to work??? My butt felt like 1000 times heavier than used to be.. need a big ass crane to shove and move it around. In this life, somehow we are so much dependant on $$. We're actually still spending $$ when we're doing nothing even without electricity, car, rent, insurance, clubs etc. etc. so in another words, we have no choice at all that we have to work as long as we're breathing and living. Even we're still spending $$ after we're dead, hell money that is. Isn't heaven or hell free? My goodness! Doesn't money grow on trees or fall from the sky??

What is it like being rich and famous?? That you don't need to worry about bills?? You can get almost everything you want? I said ALMOST, ok? Could it be boring or no friends? like what people say? I belief there is no more challenge in life anymore when you are rich and famous.

I watched this new iPod commercial on the internet 'life is random'.

To my Faithful Readers

In respect that some of you have been so faithful to come here reading my nonsense, i guess i really have to pardon myself if you notice any lack of postings here or comments in my blog from now on. I will try my best to keep checking up on you, but it'll be in a very slow pace.

But in the mean time since i can't sleep and while checking on junk emails I would like to share this with you.

Yea like i need a BJ from a granny....... do i? On the other hand..... look at the bright side...... no teeth rule.

Engagement Plans ...... Wedding

That's it!
I declare myself officially going insane!! It's 2:30am and I can't sleep. All the careful decision making trying to please both sides is driving me nuts. I hope i can pull this off once in a lifetime thing. Have i mentioned that planning for such an occasion is not a peace of cake. I have to learn new idealogy, socialogy, pychology, mentology just to get all the agreements in place. Is there any word stronger than Goodness Gracious?? anybody?? THAT's why they have expert people of doing all the T&C, MOU, NDA etc. etc.

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Away

Many bloggers apologize for being away from blogsphere... hmm... why?... why should you? you don't break any law you blog with your own time. There's no obligation here, plus real life is more fun and interesting in so many ways. Well, unless your blog is part of your work, then it's different story.

I am having a blast right now, even for the past few weeks. I know that it's just the beginning of my long journey to marriagehood, but hey, it doesn't mean i shouldn't enjoy every single moment i have in front of me, right? Being able to look at the objective infront of you, I tend to know which direction i'm heading to now.

Things Happen for a Reason

Things happen for a reason and i truly believe it. Especially in the past few months, i learn more and more about myself from everything that has happened to me and from the gf i have spent time with, sometimes many times things don't turn out the way i plan, but it always teach me something.

In every occasion, what i'm trying to do is to make the best out of everything (even in the worst scenario) so at the end of the day, i can look back and have a smile on my face and feel good about myself. I had dinner with my gf for the past few nites. We talked about lotta stuff, you know, relationship stuff. So we talked about the future and how we suppose to handle it, it's all good information. Also, sometimes it is good that to let the past go and start a new beginning. I'm saying this because, not everyone is the same even if you have got so used to what you did in the past does not mean it applies now.

DIY NoteBook Repair

I had this Fan Error when boot up, can't seem to get me to the Windows Log On Page. It just won't let me. I simply assume that its the HeatSink fan that was faulty so i decided to disect my notebook and see what's the hoo haa is. A little few screws here and there walah! disected the keyboard piece and the touch pad. It seems i was right about the fan, it's not turning. Guess it could have been the motherboard's sensor won't allow me to go on in case of CPU overheating. So what i did was plug in the power and boot up, fan not responding. Did a little tweaking here and there, the fan jumped a little. Blew away some dust and sprayed some oil in it. Tried booting up again and it turned but in a hesitant manner. I tried doing the disc jockey kind of way to make sure the oil seeps in between the core. Another boot up, it's alive! muahahha it's alive!!! Who's ur daddy?!

Not only that i was able to fix my fan, my HDD and CPU temperature has reduced in 25%-35% of heat!! It runs cooler now at CPU heat 36C and HDD 40C. Amazing!!!

Another thing i found out was if you slow down you shutter speed on your camera will be able to capture the infra-red light beem which is invisible to the naked eye.

Worn Out

I think i'm really worn out from taking care of my very sick gf for the pass 3 days while feeling sicky at the same time. At that time I don't have the slightest desire to work and so i was away from work, trying to do something that would make my heart feel better but then i got so tired after all that. Well today I'm back at work.

Patient is Virtue

You know it's funny how the world works. Sometimes, it just caught you by surprise and I would actually thought those past experiences will never come to haunt you ever again. I know now that we humans are not perfect, neither am I and I've very foolish to think that it wasn't so. Tonight, I knew what I was doing from the past few hours, I knew exactly what to do, I've been through scenario like this countless times, I knew the routine well, thanks to all that I've learned from my past. To rub a little more salt to the wound, the uncomfortable feelings I've never felt in a long time came back. But there is nothing much you can do but to be patient over and over again and to believe that we humans will learn our lessons and adjust accordingly.

I belief it's 3.30am, I should be able to sleep now.

Words of Wisdom

There are two days in every week about which we should not worry, two days which should be kept free from fear and apprehension. One of these days is Yesterday with all its mistakes and cares, its faults and blunders, its aches and pains. Yesterday has passed forever beyond our control. All the money in the world cannot bring back Yesterday. We cannot undo a single act we performed; we cannot erase a single word we said. Yesterday is gone forever.

The other day we should not worry about is Tomorrow with all its possible adversities, its burdens, its large promise and its poor performance; Tomorrow is also beyond our immediate control. Tomorrow's sun will rise, either in splendor or behind a mask of clouds, but it will rise.Until it does, we have no stake in Tomorrow, for it is yet to be born. This leaves only one day, Today. Any person can fight the battle of just one day. It is when you and I add the burdens of those two awful eternities, Yesterday and Tomorrow that we break down. It is not the experience of Today that drives a person mad, it is the remorse or bitterness of something which happened Yesterday and the dread of what Tomorrow may bring. Let us, therefore, Live but one day at a time

Love What is That?

Tonight I sit here pondering what love really is. It is late and I have work tomorrow however, I can not sleep. What is love actually? i asked myself. I've checked the online dictionaries. It defined Love simply as "an intense feeling of deep affection" and "Love is when you care for someone and are kind to them." This surprised me more than it perhaps should. The dictionary definition of love is just plain wrong! Love is not just an emotion of happiness, sadness, anger, disappointment, etc! In my opinion Love is not just a feeling. Its a 'decision', Love is a 'doing' word. It requires 'choices'. Hard choices, sometimes. It is about 'sacrifice' and 'trust'. It is about 'faithfulness'. It requires 'commitment'. I know it sometimes hurts and doesn't feel so good. As Daniel Bedingfield said in a song "Nothing hurts like love, nothing causes your heart so much pain" People who think love is a feeling will never succeed in marriage. They will never succeed in friendship. They will be likely to fail in most things they set their hands to.

When we claim that we love someone but are we correct?? This is what i think that it isn't love! Something for you to think about. If your palms sweaty and your heart racing it isn't love, it's 'like'. You can't keep your eyes or hands off of your partner? It isn't love, it's lust. Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of? Yes It isn't love as well, it's a lie!

But what do I know about the kind of love that defines anyway? People nowadays use the word love too easily, including myself. I suppose that is why we have other words like true love. What is love then if it is not true love? Is there such a thing as a half-love or one quarter-love?? I don't think so. One of the reasons why we separate the two terms is to protect our own fragile emotional selves. For example, if the relationship with the love of your life has gone sour people will say that it was love but not true love.

On the other hand there is the dark side of love. This side is the one that everyone unfortunately have had more experience with.

Self Discipline Lacking

There're way too many distractions in life, it's extremely hard for someone to stay focus including me. Seriously, I really need some spanking here. (would prefer kinky spanking). There! a lack of self discipline as we speak. Do you think lack of discipline is a source of low self esteem?

Junk Mails

Junks... junks... junks... from junk emails, junk mails all the way to the real junks in the office argghh!. I like to have everything organized and clean so cleaning up those junk emails and mails is one of those things that really annoy me! I have no idea where they get my email or office mailing address but i receive them everyday for crying outloud!! STILL those stupid pre-approved loan credit from so called "claimed"license money lender, credit cards, catalogs, or offers from second hand car dealers, etc. arrive at my office mailbox believe it or not, once i received a subscription offer from some tamil books with 50% discount. What da hell!!!? I mean.. I don't despise that book at all, I'm just not interested in reading tamil, wrong marketing strategy, wrong demographics!!! Some junk mail even had my named spelled wrongly, Desmond, Damon, Emon, Adman, Adnan etc etc...... what gigolo name is that?!!

So my routine every morning is delete or send to junk mail and picking up those mails, tearing them into two pieces. It's just a waste of ink and paper and effort, polluting the environment, hogging up my bandwitdh and I HATE IT! Imagine downloading tonnes of junk in one day. Some may even contain viruses. Even though they're electronic, but STILL producing junks! i can't believe it. Offers from some porn sites, for some viagra, penis enlargements, blow job for dummies softwares, etc. argghhh. If i need them I can just turn and look at my gf and tell her I need some. I don't go to those sites, nor i need viagra or penis enlargement!! do i look like i need one?? goood lord! hmmm... how on earth do they get my email address??? especially hotmail if the server is as fast as yahoo or gmail, then i might not be as irritated as now, but many times their server suck cock so bad. I can tell how much junk i receive in hotmail when i have my MSN Messenger on. It kept poping out telling me new emails has arrived in your inbox. Sometimes i even have people that i don't know Messenging me on MSN asking to peep on naked chicks. "See me naked, See my p***y, etc etc.

NOTE: somehow i don't like hotmail but unfortunately it goes hand in hand with MSN Meseenger.

In Life...

I found out that in life, there are seldom clear cut beginnings. What i mean is you really don't know what to aspect until those moments really came, when we can see clearly in front of you. Yet there are also moments when fate intersects with our daily lives, setting in motion a sequence of events that determine our future.